I know it's my fault I get so stressed. I always expect a lot out of myself. I've always done extremely well in school and I feel like I'll be a complete failure if I mess it all up. I tell myself that because I've made it this far I can't mess it up now. But it's also come to the point where I feel like I'll let everyone else down. Which I know is ridiculous. I know if I don't get a 4.0 they'll still be proud of me. It's just hard once you get in the habit of expecting so much out of yourself to just stop. I know it's not just me, though. One of my friends just went to see a doctor because of his anxiety. But he's got it really bad. Like it's not normal, especially for a seventeen-year-old boy. I think it's just because we've only got a year and a half left of high school and the pressure's on. Everyone (well almost everyone) wants to get a good ACT score, get good grades, and get into a good college. So everyone goes to the extremes (high or low) about everything. I just have to tell myself to stop, breathe, and relax. Usually if I just stop and listen to some music or something I'm fine.
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