Happy Holidays!

Best wishes to everyone!

Liar, liar pants on fire.

There is one type of person in this world that I absolutely cannot stand: posers/try-hards. You know who I'm talking about. Face it, we all have these people in our lives. The girl who goes around at a party saying to guys, "I love hot wings, working on cars, and country music!" For some reason, she thinks that this will instantly make the guy attracted to her. And maybe, occasionally, it does. But what happens when he finds out that a) you only like your hot wings boneless and in BBQ sauce, b) the one thing you can do to your car is pump gas and change your oil, and c) Taylor Swift is the only country you listen to? By that point, he may not care. Good for you. But to that I say, he is obviously not the type of guy worth keeping if he stays with a girl he met based on a lie simply because he likes dat ass thinks she's pretty. [I realize that this is a country-fied version of a try-hard/poser, but you can probably catch my drift.]

I would just like to know what's wrong with this society. How has it reached the point where girls think it's necessary to go around claiming to be something they're not in order to get a guy? I don't think I'm the crazy one here. I would rather be with a guy who's interested in the things I am. Too much time and energy would be wasted on trying to be someone I'm obviously not. Not only that, but I would imagine that things could get boring fast. If you have to fake common interests with someone, that's pretty sad. I mean, if you're only doing this to get with a guy, not have a relationship, fine, whatever. It's your life. Ruin it how you please. It just seems unfair to whomever you're conning.

And I'm not trying to imply that all guys are dumb enough to fall for this stupid little game. In fact, a lot of them will probably catch on pretty fast. Pretty much two minutes into any conversation based on a "common" interest will fall apart. It will be pretty apparent whether or not she knows what she's talking about. But a lot of these guys will go along with it. I mean, hey, she's good-looking, she kind of knows what you're into, and she's good-looking. Shallow is as shallow does. I guess these people need to find each other. I just find it sad. And boring. I can't imagine getting myself into a conversation about cars. As soon as a guy starts talking cars to me I know this conversation is going nowhere good, and fast.

And that's just one of the many types of try-hards/posers that exist in this world. More specifically, the type that I have to deal with pretty much everyday of my life. If you agree with my rant, then you've most likely been picturing a certain person/type. So feel free to comment letting me know who it is that just rubs you all the wrong ways. All of the ways. If you want to rant, I want to listen!

EXPLOSION

I've been a bad, bad blogger. It's been a week maybe that I haven't even logged into Blogger? I'm not sure. I could check but Christmas break has made me lazy. I had excellent, amazing things planned for this post. They were going to blow your mind. Fireworks! Explosions! Leonardo DiCaprio! I promise you, it was going to be something for the record books. However, I instead decided that it wouldn't be so nice to blow your mind and render it useless so close to Christmas. For your reading pleasure: a questionnaire stolen from Kathy.

 

1. What time did you get up this morning?

I sort of woke up at 9:30 am. But I fell asleep and woke up off and on until 11 am when I decided to grace the world with my presence. Hey, give me a break, I don't have to go back to school for two weeks.

2. How do you like your steak?

Are you offering? Medium.

3. What was the last movie you saw at the theater?

I went to see Immortals with my friends Kayla and Morgan. As I said before, it was all right. Not the greatest. The guys were hot, though. So that's always a plus!

4. What is your favorite TV show?

At the moment I am in love with New Girl. Zooey Deschanel is the greatest. I'm also obsessed with Sons of Anarchy. Because who doesn't love TV shows about motorcycle gangs?

5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be?

Pffffffffff. I don't even know at this point. I would love to live anywhere in Europe. But not permanently. I imagine I will end up settling somewhere in Illinois or Missouri because I'm too close with my family to be able to move away from them forever.

6. What did you have for breakfast?

I woke up too late for breakfast. I had mac 'n' cheese for lunch, though.

7. Do you wear glasses or contacts?  

Contacts, for sure. I absolutely hate wearing my glasses. They just feel too inhibiting.

8. What food do you despise?

I am always willing to try anything once. But I cannot stand tuna. Just the smell of it makes me feel sick.

9. Favorite Place to Eat?

Guadalajara. [Not the place in Mexico, the Mexican restaurant literally two minutes away from my house.]

 

10. Favorite dressing?

I can't stand dressing. But the pizza place Monical's has their own special French dressing that is divine with pizza. Sounds gross, but I promise you it's otherworldly.

11.What kind of vehicle do you drive?

A lovely, super fantastical 1996 white Jeep Cherokee. No frills and no cup holders.

 

We call him Mallow.

12. What are your favorite clothes?

I love to wear over-sized short t-shirts with a tank top or long-sleeved shirt underneath and jeans. I'm pretty simple. Oh, and  a scarf is nice as well.

13. Where would you visit, this weekend, if you had the chance?

Well this weekend is Christmas Eve and Day, so I really wouldn't want to leave because all my family will be in town. But the following weekend is New Year's so I'd like to go to NYC.

14. How many tattoos do you have? 

I'm not eighteen yet so I technically can't have any tattoos, not that that stops people if they really want one. I'm not sure if I'll even have one or not. I don't have plans to get any at this point in my life.

15. Where would you want to retire?

Colorado. I love it there.

16. What is your desktop photo?

Pictures like these can be found on my Tumblr, which is listed in the side bar. I suggest you czech it out.

17. Where were you born?

Somewhere in Central Illinois [actual town will remain undisclosed, although it may not be that hard to figure out if you're somewhat familiar with Illinois].

18. What is your favorite sport to watch?

Football. GO PACK GO!

19. How many siblings?

 One, my older brother Conor. He's twenty and I'm seventeen.

 

20. Favorite pastime/hobby?

Reading, Tumblring, Youtubing, hanging out with friends, video gaming, and a lot more fun stuff.

21. Coffee Drinker? 

I prefer frappuccino, but if I must I'll drink plain coffee with creamer.

22. Are you a morning person or a night person?

Night, for sure. I have the worst time waking up in the morning. It doesn't even matter if it's six in the morning or eleven. It seems as the day goes on I get more and more awake until I'm bright-eyed at one in the morning. That said, I never have any trouble going to sleep. I can pretty much force myself to fall asleep whenever, even if I'm not tired.

23. Do you have any pets?

Two dogs, Holly and Maggie.

Holly's the beagle, and Maggie's the black dog [half-bloodhound and half-Australian-shepherd].

24. What did you want to be when you were little?

An author. Before that? Bugs Bunny.

25.  What is your favorite color?

Blue.

26. Are you a cat or dog person?

Dog. I like kittens, but I can't really stand grown-up cats.

27. Are you married?

Nope!

28. Always wear your seat belt?

Yes, even if I'm moving my car from the driveway to the street. Safety first, children!

29. Been in a car accident?

Ugh, yes. If you really wanna read about it click here. Pictures are included.

30. Any pet peeves?

Believe it or not, I have many. To save some time I'll just tell you my top two. My first is when I'm eating with someone and I can hear them chewing and/or see their food. It annoys me to no end. My second is when people are late. If you say you are going to be somewhere at a specific time you should be there then. It's so rude to make the other person wait for you. This probably has to do with the fact that I'm early for everything so I have to wait around in the first place.

31. Favorite Pizza Toppings?

Bacon and shrimp. Whenever we go to pizza places that specialize their toppings for you, my dad and I always get this.

32. Favorite Flower?

Roses will always do with me.

33. Favorite ice cream?

I can't remember the brand or even the name of ice cream, but my friends and I always go out and buy this cake and icing ice cream whenever we have girl's night in. It's soooo delicious. It's vanilla ice cream with cake bits and icing.

34. Favorite fast food restaurant?

Taco Bell!

35. From whom did you get your last email?

It was actually a reply from Kathy to one of my comments on her blog.

 

And for good measure, here's some Leo for ya! [Does anyone get the title reference?]

 

Day 23

A picture of your favorite book.

Instead of making myself pick a favorite Harry Potter book, I'm just going to say that they are collectively my favorite book/series. I began reading them in the second grade after the first movie came out. After that I was pretty much addicted for life. My dad loves them just as much as I do. For me, they're really the books that got me hooked on reading. I know as a seven year old you don't do a whole lot of reading, but there was a definite increase in my reading time after reading the first book. I don't know what it is. The characters, the plot, the quality of the writing. But there's just so much more that I don't even know if I can put it into words. Every time I reread one of the books I discover something I hadn't noticed before. Maybe a scene that explains something that happened in another book. Or a clever/witty remark or statement. It's more than just good versus evil. It's about doing what you know is right even if it's not the easy thing to do. Being loyal to those you love. Knowing that you're not alone, and that it's okay to trust others and accept help.

I know it's corny to say but Harry Potter really was my childhood. I've lost count of how many times I've read each book. It became tradition for me to reread the whole series every summer. Obviously, you can tell that these books have been read a lot [as I said my dad reads them, too]. We have doubles of all the books except for the first and the sixth. The last book has inscriptions written in the inside cover from when my dad and I went to the midnight release together. I really could go on and on about how much Harry Potter has impacted my life. But in the end, Harry Potter will always be a part of who I am.

Change of Plans

You guys, I'm ashamed. I've lied to you all. As it turns out, this year I will not be making any of the pinatas that are in the poll. A couple of my friends decided to team up and make the red bird from Angry Birds. Then I threw out the idea of making a battered up pig from Angry Birds. My friend Brooke loved this idea so I told her I would team up with her and make it. Then we're going to hang them from the Spanish room ceiling so it looks like the bird is attacking the pig. The thing is, it takes a lot of time and work to make a pinata and we only have 10-12 days to make one. It's just a whole lot easier if you pair up with someone. I apologize! From the very bottom of my heart. That is not to say that I will never make any of those pinatas. Pinata making seems to be one of the only art forms I'm actually good at, so I foresee more in the future.

There will be pictures. And there will be awesomeness.

Those darn kids these days just have no respect!

I have found a new hobby.

Step One: Check to see if brother is home.
Step Two: If brother is home, turn radio on to a pop station.
Step Three: Turn radio volume up loud enough for him to hear.
Step Four: Kick back and listen to brother complain about the morals of today's society.

*Note: My brother is only twenty years old. But I secretly believe that he is actually an eighty year old man controlling a twenty year old young man's body.

'Tis all!

November Favorites

Three days late, once again. Bah Humbug.

BAND: Cage the Elephant So, I've still been listening to a ton of We the Kings. But if it's not We the Kings it's definitely Cage the Elephant. The only way I can describe them is stoner music/a tad of screamo. Some of you may be thinking that this does not sound good. But trust me, they make it work. They only have two albums, self-titled and Thank You, Happy Birthday. You can tell they are totally into their music, which I find makes it that much funner to listen to. Their music videos are on the freaky/funny side. And by that I mean their video for "Around My Head" features the lead singer taking his dead girlfriend everywhere with him. Do not let that deter you.

SONG: "The Story of Your Life" This is not a song by Cage the Elephant, it's from We the Kings' album Smile Kid. And, actually, the album's name is taken from a line in this song! Waddayakno? Like all their songs it's really peppy and upbeat and cute. Please listen to it.

BOOK: The Name of the Star This book is by Maureen Johnson, a very hilarious, clever author whom I adore. It's about a girl, Rory, from Louisiana who goes to a boarding school in London. Just as she arrives there murders start to take place in London that mimic those of Jack the Ripper. It follows Rory's life as she gets introduced to the boarding school lifestyle and the paranormal. It's the first in a trilogy and just came out in September. I highly recommend this book. It has all the right amounts of mystery, paranormal, kissing, and humor.

BLOGGER:  pastor's girl's ponderings I just recently started to follow her blog, but I wish I had sooner. In all her posts she has beautiful photographs that she takes herself. She blogs about her family, her life, and the like. Whenever I read her posts I just become really relaxed and realize that sometimes the things I worry about just don't matter so much comparatively. It's like a breath of fresh air.

YOUTUBER: LukesArcade Obviously, this is a gaming channel. On it several different people play different games (including last month's Youtuber, Joey Graceffa). They play Batman, Pikmin, Plants vs. Zombies, and a couple others. So, if you like to watch gaming videos totally check this out! If not, I understand, some people don't like to watch other people play or even play video games themselves.

TV SHOW: New Girl My best friend Jordin and I are absolutely obsessed with this show. It's on FOX and it features Zooey Deschanel. That right there is enough to have me convinced. It's a really quirky, funny TV show about Jess, who moves into an apartment with three complete strangers. Who are all men. Jess is quirky, hard to embarrass, and completely lovable. I have to say out of all the guys on the show, Schmidt is my favorite. Mostly because he's completely ridiculous. Definitely, definitely watch it.

VIDEO GAME: Call of Duty: Black Ops I know this game is old. But I started to play it last month and haven't stopped. Mostly because once I start a game I can't stop until I've finished it. I think I'm about halfway through the campaign. I considered getting Modern Warfare 3, but I'm not sure. If I'm going to spend that much money on a video game I would rather have Batman: Arkham City.

THING(S): Infinity Scarves My favorite things to wear in during the wintertime are scarves. I was shopping at American Eagle for scarves when I came across this dark green, knit infinity scarf. I bought it and went back a week later to buy another, white one. Basically it's just one big loop that you wrap around your neck twice. I like them so much better than regular scarves because their wrap around your neck twice and keep your neck and face pretty warm. I also think they're so much cuter than regular scarves.

I realize I didn't include a movie of the month. The only movie I watched this month was Immortals. I went to see it with my friends Kayla and Morgan. I didn't like it much because it was supposed to be 3D so it was somewhat cheesy. I also didn't follow the story of Theseus too well, which I thought was what the movie was. We all agreed that it was decently good, though. Mostly because of all the half-naked hot guys. (Sorry if that's awkward for any guys reading this, I'm just being truthful.)

Poll Yo!

And now for a short announcement: If you would kindly look to the right of the screen, you will notice I have now added a poll to my blog. Every year my Spanish teacher has all her students make small pinatas. As a Spanish IV student I am able to pick anything I want. I've narrowed it down to three different characters. You can now vote for which one you would like to see me make. Not to sound too braggy, but I consider myself a pretty skilled pinata maker. I've made Mario and the Ferocious Beast. The poll will close on the 13th, because I think that's when we have to tell the teacher what we're making. So get out there and vote people! It's your Constitutional right! [Does that apply here? We'll go with yes.]

Toadstool

Sonic the Hedgehog

Link

Day 22

A picture of something you wish you were better at.

I really, really wish I was a good skier. Now, I don't want you to get the impression that I ski on a regular basis or every winter. I've only skied twice in my life. But I remember how much fun it was. The rush as you hurtle done the side of a mountain, or in my case a very, very large hill. How pretty the snow looks on the ground and the trees. It's so satisfying once you're able to reach the bottom without falling once. [Shocking, right?] Plus how cool would it be to tell people that you ski. Like, regularly. I also understand that it can get pretty pricey. But I can dream, right? I'm just such a winter person it feels wrong to not be able to say that I ski, snowboard, or ice skate. [I can ice skate, but not very well.]

Is there anything that you guys wish you were better at? And do any of you ski? If so, I am extremely jealous of you.

Quiero bailar contigo.

All I really want is someone who will laugh with me. Just sit up until the buttcrack of dawn and just talk and laugh and be ridiculous. I want to drive around all day doing absolutely nothing. I want to plant my butt in front of a TV with someone and have Harry Potter and Lord of the Rings marathons. Or maybe play Xbox so long that our eyes get blurry and we can't think straight. I want to love someone like I never have before. Be loved by someone like I can't even imagine. I want someone who will salsa dance with me even though I have no clue. I just want to have that person who knows me like no other and will always be there when the world gets cold.

Day 21

A picture of something you wish you could forget.

I wish I could forget this dress. I'm not going to lie, I know I look good in it. I mean, that's why I bought it for homecoming. But to be honest it never even really fit right. The whole damn dance I was constantly hitching that thing up so that I wasn't giving any free peep shows. Plus the poofy skirt was not staying poofy. I had to keep having my friend Morgan fluff it up. Which I eventually gave up on. And to top it all off I paid a somewhat ridiculous amount of money for it. Especially considering the fact that I probably won't ever wear it again. I tried to reason with myself saying that the most I've ever spent on a dress is $80 and it was my last high school homecoming. But I regret it. The one thing I do like about the dress? The extra tulle in the skirt provided an adequate barrier between me and a certain someone who I've mentioned previously. I don't want to talk about it. Yet. There will definitely come a time, probably soon, that I want to talk about it. Because it's ridiculous/hilarious/embarrassing. And for some reason I have this insane need to share all ridiculous/hilarious/embarrassing stories I have about myself. Masochist? Yes. Ashamed? A little. Regretful? Never.

Happy 11/11/11! Make your wish count! [If you believe in that stuff.]

Decisions, decisions. And my descent into insanity.

I've been accepted to Saint Louis University! This is huuuge. This means that I have to make the choice of whether to go to SLU or Millikin. I was kind of hoping they'd make the decision for me. But that's not going to happen. You see, for the past few months I was all about going to SLU next year. I mean, I did apply to Millikin. But mostly because a bunch of my family went/goes there, my mom works there, and it's in my hometown. But then I went on a tour [despite the fact that I've been there too many times to count] and now I'm all confused. WTF.

Anyway, last night I had a dream that I was going to school at Millikin. It really wasn't a weird dream, either. I just went to class, hung out with friends, and did normal college things.[There was this one part, though, that involved a really cute guy. Oh yeah.]

So how am I supposed to know which college is the right one for me? Is this dream trying to tell me that Millikin is the way to go? Some people might take it as a sign, my subconscious telling me that I really do want to go there. And I probably would have taken it that way in the past. But this is such a huge decision, I can't let one measly little dream do it for me. I keep telling people that I'll definitely know by March. "I don't know how I'll know, but I'll know," I always say. But as March keeps getting closer [this year is going fast, people] I'm still stuck at the same place I've been since the beginning of the school year. I have absolutely no clue. I don't know how I'm going to decide or where I'll be next year. It's both scary and exciting. But mostly scary.

I don't know what I'm doing any more. But I'll probably die from an anxiety induced heart attack before next year even comes. Between English 101, calculus, and trying to choose which college to go to, my future is not looking too good right now.

In other, happier news, my scholastic bowl team [of which I'm the captain, go nerds!] is undefeated! We've only had two matches.... but still. Undefeated is undefeated.

October Favorites

I've decided to try this thing when at the end of each month I tell you all about my favorite things of the month. It's mainly a YouTube thing, but considering I don't actually make videos, I'm turning it into a Blogger thing. So we'll see how this goes. [And, yes, I realize it's 3 days late.]

BAND: We the Kings I used to be a huuuuge We the Kings fan when I was a freshmen. I swear I know all the words off their first CD [self-titled]. After that, though, I didn't really keep up with them. I'm not sure why. But I just recently ordered their last two CDs [Smile Kid and Sunshine State of Mind] off their website. Right now I have Smile Kid in my car stereo. I haven't listened to Sunshine State of Mind yet but I have high expectations. If you haven't already you should definitely check them out.

SONG: "She Takes Me High" So, obviously, because I've been listening to We the Kings nonstop, one of their songs is my favorite of the month. It's the type of song that's expected by them: upbeat, cheesy lyrics, and totally pop rock. But I can't help jamming to it all the time.

BOOK: Heist Society This is a book by Ally Carter that you should definitely read. It is a Young Adult book, but if you're a book snob don't let that discourage you. The basic gist of the plot is that there's this 15-year-old-year girl, Kat, whose family is made up of art thieves. They're always stealing valuable paintings and whatnot, because, well, that's what art thieves do. Except Kat's dad gets accused of stealing some gangsters precious art collection. Kat has to get them back so that the gangster doesn't do anything to him. This book makes me want to become a highly-skilled art thief, wear black all the time, meet an incredibly hot millionaire, and tiptoe around doing daring, dangerous things. Like I said before, you should definitely read it.

SNACK: Quaker Quakes - Cheddar Cheese I know a lot of people have this misconception that rice cakes aren't good. But I promise you, they are. At least the cheddar cheese kind. If it's crunchy and cheesy chances are I'll like it. Plus if eaten in small proportions they're not that bad for you.

BLOGGER: Random Ramblings If you're into books and blogs about books, this is a great blog to check out. Jillian always has great reviews of books, many of these books are now on my ever-growing to-read list.  Not all of her posts are about books, but these are just as good as her reviews.

YOUTUBER: JoeyGraceffa This is Joey's personal channel on YouTube. His main channel is a music video channel, WinterSpringPro, which he does with another girl. This channel, however, is his personal vlogs. I love him so much! He's terribly adorable and reminds me a lot of my friends Trevor. If anime, video games, and music are your thing then what are you waiting for?

TV SHOW: American Horror Story This TV show is creepy as shit. No joke. I can't even begin to explain it. This family moves into a huge, old mansion where a bunch of murders took place but they don't know. All this weird stuff happens to them. And somehow this random, crazy neighbor of theirs is obsessed with the house. I can't explain it any better than that. It's on FX on Wednesdays 9c. If you watch it, please don't think I'm psycho. I have no clue why I like this TV show so much, I just do.

MOVIE: Paranormal Activity 3 I haven't watched many movies this month, so pickings were slim. But I did really like this movie. It's rated R, so if you're younger than that you'd have to find someone to take you. It follows Katie and Kristi's lives when they were very young girls. The whole background of why the things happen in the first two movies gets explained is this one. I would say it's the best one out of all three. Scary movies don't usually keep me up at night, but this one did. I went and saw the 10 o'clock showing the day before it released with a bunch of my friends. We were all scared out of our minds.

VIDEO GAME: Cube Field So I haven't had much time to play any videos games this month because of school. I don't think cube field actually qualifies as a *video game* but it's the only one I've really played this month. Basically you just have to navigate around a bunch of cubes. Really simple. It's supposed to help your perception and reaction time. I usually play it while I'm in Intro to Business because we don't really do anything. It's one of those games that you play if you have your computer and have some time to kill.

THING: My Brand Spankin' New Packers Lounge Chair I saw it at Farm 'n' Fleet with my dad and I couldn't not get it. It's sooo comfy. I could literally sit in it and read or watch TV for hours. It must be good luck too, because the Packers are 7 and 0! Yeaaaaaaaaaah! It wasn't a purely impulse item, though. My old blue one had gotten really uncomfortable and dirty. I mean, I did have it for almost 7 years.

What do you guys think, should this be a thing?

Day 20

A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel.

There are numerous places I'd love to travel: Spain, France, Germany. The list goes on. But the one place I can remember wanting to travel to the longest is definitely Ireland. My dad's family is from Ireland and really into the whole Irish heritage thing. I mean, my dad organizes the annual St. Patrick's Day Parade in my hometown for crying out loud. [He didn't get this job for being Irish, though. Mainly because he's a member of the Knights of Columbus and willing to do the job.] Anywho, I remember when I was younger wanting to go to Ireland. I want to kiss the Blarney stone, go drinking in pubs in Dublin, go to Galway Bay [that song was my favorite when I was little], and go to Roscommon and Cork counties [that's where my family's from]. I mainly just think it'd be neat to see the place where the majority of my lineage is from [my mom's family is Scottish so Scotland is a close second]. I think it'd also be really cool to do all this with my dad. He's been there before when he was a bachelor and living in Holland. But I know he'd love to go back and see it all again with his family.

Are there any places you're just dieing to travel?

Scratch Off Challenge

Lazy blog is lazy. I saw this on Kathy's blog and I just had to steal it. It brought me back to the good ole days of middle school sitting on MySpace filling out bulletin post survey after bulletin post survey. Those were the days. Basically all you do is cross off the lines that apply to yourself. Simple, right?

Appearance
I have/had piercings besides the ears.
I want piercings besides the ears.
I have many scars.  I've had a couple stitches and once ran into a brick wall. But I also have some scars on my feet from mosquito bites.
I tan easily. I wish.
I wish my hair was a different color.
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color. I have never dyed my hair. Ever.
I have a tattoo.
I want a tattoo. I really do want one, but I want it to be something meaningful.
I can be self-conscious about my appearance.
I have/had braces.
I have more than two piercings.

Embarrassment
Disney movies still make me cry. I'm a sucker. What can I say.
I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried.
I’ve glued my hand to something.
I’ve laughed until some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
I’ve touched something sharp/hot/etc to see if it would hurt. I'm also sometimes an idiot.

Health
I’ve gotten stitches. On my forehead from running into a door jamb when I was 3 and on my knee from this incident a couple summers ago involving a table.
I’ve broken or dislocated a bone. I broke my right ankle playing summer basketball when I was 10.
I’ve had my tonsils removed.
I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed.
I’ve had chicken pox. But I have had the vaccine.
I've had malaria.
I've had typhoid.
I've had jaundice.

Travel
I’ve been on a plane.
I’ve been to the US.
I’ve been to Europe.
I've been to at least one other country.
I've never been out of my country.
I’ve driven/ridden over 200 kilometers in one day.

Experiences
I’ve gotten lost in my city.
I’ve seen a shooting star.
I’ve wished on a shooting star. I'm not quite sure why I didn't wish on it... like I said, sometimes I'm an idiot.
I’ve seen a meteor shower.
I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas.
I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
I’ve slapped someone. I acted like I was kidding, but I was serious.
I’ve kissed someone underwater.
I’ve chugged something.
I’ve crashed a car.
I’ve been skiing.
I’ve been in a musical.
I’ve auditioned for something.
I’ve been on stage.
I’ve caught a snowflake on my tongue.
I’ve sat on a rooftop at night.
I’ve pranked someone. 
I’ve ridden in a taxi.

Honesty / Crime
I’ve been threatened to be arrested.
I’ve broken a law.  Ahem.
I’ve done something I promised someone I wouldn’t.
I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.
I’ve sneaked out.
I’ve lied about my whereabouts.
I’ve cheated while playing a game.
I’ve been in a fist fight.

Death
I’m afraid of dying. 
I hate funerals.
I’ve seen someone/something die. Do bugs count?
Someone close to me has attempted/committed suicide.
I have attempted suicide.
I’ve thought about suicide before.
I’ve written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism
I own over 10 music CDs.
I own over 10 novels.
I own over 5 electronic gadgets.
I’m obsessed with anime/manga.
I collected comic books. Archie comics anyone?
I own a lot of makeup.
I own gaming console(s).
I own a car.
I own a bike.
I thrive on compliments.
I thrive on hate.

Random
I can sing low key.
I’ve stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
I open up to others easily.
I watch the news occasionally or always.
I like to kill bugs.
I sing in the shower.
I’m a morning person.
I’m a sports cricket fanatic.
I twirl my hair.
I care about grammar.
I love spam.
I’ve copied more than 30 CDs in a day.
I bake reasonably well. I like to think I'm a master pastry chef.
My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, blue, red, black, purple, or orange.
I would wear pajamas to school. I just can't do it. I have this theory that if I dress nice my day will be a good one.
I like Martha Stewart.
I laugh at my own jokes. 
I eat fast food weekly.
I’ve not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
I can’t sleep if there’s a bug/insect in the room.
I’m really ticklish.
I like  chocolate. But only if it's white chocolate or somehow involved with caramel.
I bite my nails. I pick at my nails.
I’m good at remembering names.
I’m good at remembering dates.
My memory sucks.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.

People
...used to ask if I was anorexic/bulimic.
...called me fat.
...say I’m skinny.
...have said I’m ugly.
...have said I’m pretty.
...have spread rumors about me.
...force me to eat.
...say I eat too much.
...say I eat too little.
...say I eat too fast.
...say I eat too slow.
...have called me a genius.
...have given me gifts.

Eating
I’ve lost weight.
I’ve gained weight.
I’m at my thinnest.
I’m at my biggest.
I’ve lost weight and kept it off.
I’ve lost weight, but gained it back.
My weight affects my mood. 
I diet. 
I’m vegan/vegetarian. I tried it once after watching a Tyra Show special on tape worms. Lasted about a month.
I exercise.
I’ve fainted from exhaustion. 
 
Family
I’ve sworn at my parents.
I’ve planned to run away from home before.
I’ve run away from home.
I have a sibling less than one year old.
I want kids.
I’ve had kids.
I’ve lost a child.

Relationships
I’m engaged.
I’m married.
I'm in a relationship.
I’ve gone on a blind date. Never again.
I have/had a friend with benefits.
I miss someone right now.
I have a fear of abandonment.
I don't like to depend on others. 
I’ve gotten divorced.
I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back.
Someone has/had feelings for me when I didn’t have them back.
I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
I’ve kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality
I’m a cuddler.
I’ve been kissed in the rain.
I’ve hugged a stranger. Why does this have to be sexual?
I’ve kissed a stranger.

Bad times
I regularly drink.
I can’t swallow pills.
I can swallow numerous pills at a time without difficulty.
I’ve been diagnosed with depression at some point.
I have anxiety problems.
I shut others out when I’m upset.
I don’t have anyone to talk to when I’m upset.
I have taken/take anti-depressants.
I’ve slept an entire day before. When I'm sick all I want to do is sleep.
I’ve plotted revenge.  I plot revenge all the time, although I've never actually acted on it. Someday.... someday.

Don't you

hate it when you're wearing jeans and they get all baggy and loose at your knees and calves? I am eternally searching for the perfect pair of jeans that DON'T DO THIS. Maybe I should just invest in some jeggings.

That's all. Now I'm going to go have a Paranormal Activity movie marathon with some friends before seeing the new one at midnight.

IMPORTANT

This blog, formerly known as Just Give It a Few, has been officially been renamed as Kick Mii Kate. The Tumblr and Youtube accounts listed to the right have been renamed accordingly. There need be no worries, the blogger is still the same person, the posts will be of the same nature and regularity, and there will be absolutely no more name changes. Ever.

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I really just want to be alone at this point.

I think I might have made a mistake. Which would normally be totally fine because I make mistakes all the time. We all do, we're only human. Except it's not okay this time because it involves someone else and their feelings.

You know how some people say that a guy and a girl can't just be friends? That eventually one of them will end up falling for liking the other? I think I've finally come to this realization. You see, I've been pretty good friends with this sophomore boy since last year. We used to be in band together, before I quit, so we got to know each other through all the band stuff. We've hung out with a few times, with other friends present, and text each other. I should have stopped it though. He's told me multiple times that he likes me. Every time I've told him that I don't feel the same way about him. I just want to be friends. After I'd tell him that he would stop texting me, and then start again. I don't know, maybe he thought that some day he would have a chance. I know. I should have stopped it. But we were really good friends.

For a while I honestly did think that we could just be friends. That he'd finally accepted it or stopped liking me that way or something. So when he asked me to go to homecoming with him, I said I would. [Are you cringing yet? I am.] I really didn't think anything of it. Two of his friends were going with mine so I thought we were all going as friends. Now I can see this was not the case at all. The whole night he kept hitting on me. I obviously won't lie to myself, every girl likes to be hit on. But I knew this was going no where. It got to the point where I was just trying to avoid him. I mean, it was my senior homecoming, I really just wanted to dance and have a good time with my friends.

This whole time I've never wanted to be with him. There's no iffy feelings or maybe possibly I do. Trust me on this, when you know, you know. He keeps saying we should hang out sometime. He also keeps tweeting about it. Which kind of peeves me because I hate when other people know about my business without me offering it. I feel horrible about the whole thing. I never wanted to hurt him, I still don't. But I'm thinking that I have to tell him we can't even be friends anymore. It's just not possible. There's no way to do this without hurting him or making his friends hate me. Besides actually being with him, which isn't an option. I'm not going to lie to myself, him, and everyone else. In the end, that would hurt more than cutting it off now would.

I hate this feeling of regret and guiltiness. I hate how one person can make you feel so awful. I hate knowing it's mostly my fault. And I especially hate having to be the bad guy and do the dirty work.

Moments

 

I could tell you how much this affected me. I could also tell you how many times I read this and longed to make a change, any change, big or small. But I'm not because I want you to experience this for yourself and not through mine. Or maybe it won't affect you. I can't be the one to decide that.

I stole this from Meg. And I can say this many times over, but I you really should czech out her blog.

Day 19

A picture of you when you were little.

This is a picture of my big brother Conor and me! I believe this was taken on my second Christmas. I would have been 22 months and Conor would have been 4 years old. When I was little people used to tell my parents that they should enter me in beauty pageants. I think it was my big blue eyes and dimples.

I just love this picture, though. My parents say that when we were little Conor always used to want to play with me and hug me. After he got over the fact that they weren't going to be returning me to the hospital for good. We used to fight all the time when we were younger, and still do sometimes. We're just two very different types of people. He takes everything to heart and believes everyone has good intentions until they show him otherwise.. And I'm more selfish and can see people for exactly what they are. But he's my big brother and he would do anything for me. And I would do anything for him. Looking at this picture makes me realize how lucky I am to have such an awesome brother.

Winner Winner Chicken Dinner!

You know those give away competitions companies have? The ones where you fill out a card with your information and put it in a box? I never enter them because I always feel like what are my chances anyway. Well the gas station that my family always goes to had a drawing for a Bud Light NFL mini-fridge. And my dad won it! So now that beauty of a mini-fridge is in our Packer corner in our family room. I don't think I've seen my dad that happy in a long time. Well, maybe except for when he got his new job a couple months ago... But still. I'm trying to convince him to let me take it to college next year. No luck yet, but if all else fails I'll just steal it from him.

And the weird thing is that my cousin Jarrod just got one, too. But not from a drawing. I'm not sure where he was but he saw one in a dumpster. It still had energy drinks and beer in it. So he took it home to see if it still worked, and it did! What kind of luck is that? [I figure it belonged to some guy and his girlfriend got tired of seeing it and threw it out.] He's so proud of that thing, he has it displayed front and center in he and his wife's living room.

Breakin' the Law

Last Wednesday. Ho-hum. Ever had one of those days where you look back and say, "If I had done this one little thing my day would have been ten times better." Or perhaps, " If I hadn't done this one thing I could have avoided a catastrophe mistake." Well that's how last Wednesday went for me.

It was a dark and stormy night... Okay, not so much. Actually, it was a normal day. So normal, that I really can't recall much of anything that happened that day. Or maybe this one incident just over-shadows everything else. I suppose I woke up, went to school, came home from school... And got a speeding ticket. Yep, my first ever.

The neighborhood I live in is surrounded by a golf course. Not good. I hate the golfers. For some reason they think they're all hot and stuff and can do whatever pleases them. For the purposes of this post, please refer to the drawing I have beautifully created.

 The horizontal street you see is the street I, and most of my friends in my neighborhood, take to get to and from school. Originally there was supposed to be an underground tunnel that connected both sides of the golf course underneath the street. However, due to poor planning on the park district's part, there was nay money to fund such a fairytale. Then they proposed closing the street altogether so the pretty little golfers could safely cross the street on their fatmobiles golf carts. Big no-no from the city. Instead, they put up a speed limit of 25 mph along about half of the street. The speed limit on the rest of the street is 40 mph, just as it has been for as long as I can remember. [You only have to go 25 mph when the light on the speed limit sign blinks. Which is pretty much all day.] See the street where the cop park ranger car is? Well it's pretty well known for park rangers to sit there and try to catch people speeding. This was actually the first time I've seen one there.

So I was driving along on my way home from jamming to some music. I'll be the first to admit that I don't actually go 25 mph. Usually I slow down to 30-35 mph over the cross walk and then speed back up. I mean, that's what most people do. As I turn into my neighborhood I look into my rear view mirror and see those stupid red and blue lights. At first I have this insane thought, "Okay, maybe I'm not getting pulled over. Maybe he's just trying to get around me." Duh. Of course not, I was just being stupid. He pulls over behind me and gets out of the car. "Miss, you were going so fast you were burning rubber!" Right, because tires burn rubber going 43 mph. Then he tried to tell me I didn't use my turn signal turning into my neighborhood. Which is a lie, I know I used it. [I've been told by many people I overuse my turn signal. But that's only because I hate it when people don't use it.] Mind you it wasn't even a police officer, it was a park ranger. He asks for my license and registration. And what do you know. I had forgotten my license. I think at that point I was ready to cry.

So after he comes back to my window after searching for my license number he says, "I could get you for four violations right now." Then he stopped talking and just looked at me. I think he wanted me to cry. Which I did, but that's not the point. He didn't need to be a jerk about it. Then he goes, "However, I'm only going to give you a ticket for going 43 in a 25." And, of course, he was all smug about it. I know he was being nice, but you could tell he knew he was being nice. Then I drove the 2 minutes I had left to drive to my house.

Now I have to go next Wednesday to the state attorney's office to get court supervision. Basically, if I don't get a ticket in the next six months the speeding ticket will be taken off my record. I have to pay $120 for the ticket and $100 for the court supervision. I'm so mad. Mostly at myself and a little at the park ranger. Plus any time I tell anyone I got a ticket from a park ranger they laugh. The one time I didn't get stuck behind an elderly person actually driving the speed limit there's a park ranger! Ugh.