I never plan on doing stupid things. I swear to you. Would it be cliche to say they just sort of happen? I guess I understand why people say it now. They really do just happen. Don't get me wrong, I know it's all my fault. I don't have to make that one choice that changes everything. I could always just do what I know I should. But that's rarely ever the case now is it? I guess I was beginning to feel invincible. Getting away with all the crazy stuff that's gone down in the past, God what is it now? Four, five months. But no one's invincible, nothing lasts forever. I'll admit I knew this day would come, I just always put that thought in the back of my mind. But that day has come. Not even fifteen minutes fresh. My summer's changed now, the rest of my high school career probably. Now I have to think even more critically. Possibly even do the right, responsible thing from now on.
I know what I did was wrong. I know this. I know this. But good stories hardly ever come from following the rules, obeying the law. And that is how I justify myself. In the end all we have is stories, and who wants to be stuck with sucky ones? I've created a lot of trouble for myself, but I've learned a lot these past months. I can get through this and come out even better.
I don't believe you need to break the law to have good stories. I equate this to musicians who say they need drugs to play, or writers who say they need to drink to write well. It's a hoax, a myth. People need willpower and determination beyond normal capacity. That's just my opinion on it though. And what you did wouldn't have been THAT bad, could it? Hmm...
ReplyDeleteI meant to say couldn't have been, not wouldn't have been. Oops.
ReplyDeletehah, yeah it really wasn't that bad. Just a little bit of an over-reaction on my part, which I do quite often. I have an over active imagination. And I do agree that you don't have to break the law to have good stories, it's more of an adrenaline rush type of thing. Don't get the wrong idea though, I'm not a "screw the law, I'll do whatever I want!!!" type of person. More of a "oh crap! I probably shouldn't have done that..." type of person
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