I know what you really are, creep.

I don't like to talk about religion on here (it's kind of private thing for me) but I think it's relevant to tell you that I've given up Mt Dew for Lent. I'm sort of addicted to Mt Dew, it's the only pop I drink. Besides Crush, but I don't really count that because it doesn't have caffeine. For the past three-ish weeks now I've gotten home from school and suffered from caffeine headaches. On top of the migraines I usually get about 6th hour. How much longer until Easter? The plus side is that I've been drinking a ton more water. But the other down side? I've began having dreams about Mt Dew. Yes, dreams. So I wake up craving Mt Dew everyday. That certainly helps the cause a whole lot. (Thank you subconscious!)

Now the real reason behind this post. A boy. Not just a boy, but the boy I mentioned in a post a while back. I'm well aware this all happened like 3 months ago. But I'm the type of person who gets mad really fast, quickly becomes indifferent, and then a long while later gets to thinking about it and becomes angry again. This boy and I aren't friends anymore. Like at all. Which that in the first place kind of hurts me. I mean we were friends like a year ago before all this stuff went down. Now he hardly ever talks to me. In fact, most of the time he acts like I'm not there. Like I don't exist. It's actually insulting, I was one of your close friends and then all of sudden I'm nothing? He could at least give me some excuse. I probably would have settled for an extremely lame one.

But now there's this rumor going around school. See, one of his best friends is this girl, we'll call her Ernestine. They do everything together, even with her boyfriend. I found out from my sister's friend that this boy may or may not have gotten Ernestine pregnant. Gotten her pregnant back in December. Hmmm, you may ask, wasn't that when this boy and you were talking? Yes, yes it was. So not only did he possibly have sex with her while we were talking, he might also have gotten her pregnant. And I know that I could be freaking out over nothing. It's all possibly and might and may or may not. But there shouldn't be rumors like that in the first place. From my experience there's always something true, however small, in a rumor. (Plus she hasn't shown up for soccer, which started like a month ago, even though she's a huge soccer freak. And her stomach is questionably round. And according to one of my friends hard. I don't know, that's just what I've heard.)

Also, sometimes he'll come up to me and randomly start a conversation. Like the past 3 months just didn't happen. And then he'll go back to, "Kate who?" Make up your freaking mind. I'll play nice, but I know what you are. A shady, good for nothing, piece of shit who plays the whole nice, quiet guy thing for his advantage. I know what you're all about buddy. Oh, and now I see him walking around school talking to these two freshmen girls. Why would a senior suddenly want to be friends with two freshmen girls he has never talked to before two months before graduation? While your best friend might be pregnant with your baby? Creep.

Whew. Just had to get that out of my system. My friends have heard this a thousand and one times so I thought I would share it with you guys. =]

(BEDA in 3 days! Yes, I've decided to do it.)

Day 07

I couldn't decide between two items so I decided to include both of them.

A picture of you most treasured item(s).

I know it's kind of cliche for a girl's favorite item to be a a pair of shoes but I can't help myself. I've had these boots since the 7th grade. So I've had them for about 5 years now. (I have a mild addiction to boots. You should see my collection.) The inside of them are worn down. What traction there once was is now completely gone. The toe of one boot is completely torn. And the black is worn down and stained. I know it's kind of ridiculous to have a pair of shoes for so long, especially if they're falling apart. But I got these shoes right before I turned 13 and I feel like they've been through everything with me. I don't really even care that they're not that cute anymore. During the winter I wear them practically everyday. I'll probably keep wearing them until it's physically impossible to keep them on my feet. And even then I doubt if I'll throw them out.

You can't really tell what that is, but it's a bracelet with a piano charm on it. I don't usually wear a whole lot of jewelry but I wear this one a lot. My gramma F gave it to me for my 16th birthday last year. She got me a piano charm because my birthday was right after I won the piano competition. She's given me lots of presents over the years, and to be honest I've gotten rid of about half of them. (What? Don't look at me like that. She had like 30 people to buy for, it's not like she could be choosy.) But this one was really special to me because I know she put a lot of thought and trouble into getting it for me. It's also the last birthday present she ever gave me. I would say last present but she had bought her Christmas presents before she died. All the women in the family got watches and all the men got billfolds (it was easier for her to stick to one main theme). I'll keep this for the rest of my life and probably pass it down to my daughter if (when) she takes up piano.

Ahem.

So I logged on with the intention of posting a Day 07 blog. But then I realized I had to catch up on all the blog posts I've missed this week. So I didn't have time to take a picture, upload it, upload it to the blog, and then write an entire blog. I promise I will do it tomorrow when I get home from school! Provided I haven't passed out. Our school is having a blood drive tomorrow and it'll be the first time I've given blood. I've had my blood drawn before, but not like this. I'm super nervous.

 

Will this picture make up for it? I hope so. (I realize it's mean to make fun of the poor girl, but seriously. Look at Leo being all nice. She forgot her lunch box!)

Fine. Here's a gif of two little fluffy animals frolicking in the snow. So adorable!

Day 06

A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day.

Hands down, Chelsea Handler. She's probably one of my favorite people. If you've never heard of her (which I don't believe is possible) she's the host of Chelsea Lately on E! It starts off with a round table wear she and three other comedians talk about current events. And then she interviews a celebrity. Chelsea is my all-time favorite comedian (next to Kathy Griffin). Mostly just because she's a bitch and really sarcastic and she really doesn't really care what people think (to an extent, I understand that all celebrities really do care). If I could go to a taping of Chelsea Lately or one of her comedy shows I might be happy for the rest of my life. I was super excited when I found out about After Lately. It's about what goes on during the day when they're not taping. It's hilarious. She hosted this year's VMAs. And to be honest I really don't care that she did a terrible job and was possibly drunk and/or high. I really don't. I guess I just love her so much because she basically has my sense of humor, except she can pull it off really well. I like people who have that "I just don't give a fuck" attitude.

(Side note: I might possibly be doing BEDA. I haven't decided for sure yet.)

Take me now.

Because any man who can stand on a roof top, iron nonexistent clothes, and look this good can just take me. I will travel to Africa and hunt blood diamonds with you! I don't care!

Tis all.

Fact: embarassing pictures are my favorite kind.

I think my life is coming in full circle. Last night as I was getting ready to go over to my friend Kristi's house (she's one of my oldest friends, we haven't done anything recently but every time we get together it's like no time's gone by) when two of my old friends (Morgan and Jordin) rang my doorbell. I was absolutely flabbergasted (I love this word). I never expected to see them there. They said they wanted to kidnap me and take me to Krekel's (the best greasy food joint ever). I felt kind of like a jerk, like I was blowing them off, but I really did have plans.

So I met them at Rock Springs (it's like a mini-national park) and we went hiking and basically talked about what happened all those months ago. They said they were sorry for letting things get so bad and that we hadn't been friends for so long. And honestly, I felt kind of bad. I mean, I know I was right in what I did. I didn't like the things they were doing. But I still love them and all. In the end, we made up. They say they don't party much any more (we'll see). But honestly, if they want to party, whatever. I just won't go with them. I have other friends I can do things with. But they are the people that know me the best and I feel so comfortable with them. I can tell them anything and they won't judge me. So I guess we'll see how this goes. Everything's not back to how it used to be (I haven't talked to the other two yet), but I feel like it could get there. I can't lie, I've had the best times of my life with those girls. Just this time last year was when we became super close, weird that it's happening at the same time again.

Anywho, this little thingie was passed onto me by Free to Dance and I highly suggest you check out her blog, it's one of my favorites. The rules are as follows:

1. List three things that you love about yourself.
2. Post a picture that you love.
3. List five bloggers to whom you are passing this along.

So here it goes!

1. My musical ability. I'm not trying to brag, but I'm a relatively talented musician. I've played piano since I was six years old and flute since I was nine years old. To be honest, I don't think it's too hard to become a good musician. It just takes a lot of practice. So what I mean is my musical expression. Whenever I play I'm really expressive and put emotions and colors into the music. (To be somewhat hippie) I would say I try to feel the music and make others feel it to. Just last year I won top award for my piano playing at the local university. And my friend Haley and I were a half point away from getting a perfect score for our flute duet at the Solo and Ensemble contest.
2. My sense of humor. (I know DB used this one but it really is one of my favorite things about myself.) I have a really dry, kind of mean sense of humor. (Some might say bitchy.) But I always manage to lighten up the tension in the most serious situations. People have told me that my one-liners are the best. Usually I say something awkwardly true and it's as easy as that. I know I'm not funny all the time, but I don't like it when things get super serious so I like to try and lighten things up. Plus it sometimes lets me get away with being bitchy (I try not to be but sometimes I can't help it).
3. My honesty. I think I get it from my dad, he's an extremely honest person. I hate lying and whenever I do lie I get this awful feeling in my stomach. I just think it's so gross to be dishonest. I want people to be able to trust me and know that I would never lie to them. I'll admit it's gotten me into some bad situations. Sometimes I'm too blunt and hurt peoples feelings. I feel bad when I do, but like I said I hate to lie. The bad thing is that sometimes I expect people to be just as honest as me. Which usually results in my feelings getting hurt (i.e. the whole situation with my friends back in November). But when I say something I feel good knowing that people can take my word for it.

 This was hard because I have so many favorite pictures. That is not a flattering picture at all. Of any of us. In fact they would probably hate me if they knew I used this picture. The girl standing up in the sunroof is Morgan and the one driving is Kayla. We all look so ridiculous. I think I took this when we ran to the grocery store to get stuff for s'mores for one of the many bonfires we had last summer. (The air freshener says, "Smile if you're not wearing any panties." Typical Kayla.)

the lexical gap, allyson kate, The Anxious Apple Core, Imagine Me Complexly, and Victoria's World are some of my favorite blogs. I strongly suggest you check them out.

That's all for now! Another blog for the 30 Day Picture Challenge should be up tomorrow or the day after.